im a person who watches movies and really lets it get to me, when i was 8 i watched hercules and desided i could carry my dad across the room (i thought i did but he was on his tip toes)
but the other day i watched the blind side and thought, all these bad things happen and no one helps anyone anyways, but at the same time, no one seems to think they have a choice and get out of that situation.... like me for example, i complain about living out of town, at the same time, it scares the hell out of me to drive so i have the choice to go but it terrifies me to go out and possibly kill myself or someone else in a vehicle, so i am a chickenshit.
i know i am, but i could d something about it, i confrount my fears, i try driving and i have many different teachers telling me many different things, speed go faster, your only alowed to be with in 5 k of the speed limit over or under, your going too fast, FUCK SLOW DOWN, and my favorite, pull over if they hastle you.
i could move to town.... no job, maybe minimum wadge and i have to upgrade my math.... uggg. i really need to go to uni to have a good life, i just want to be happy, i dont need much, but i still am paying like 60 - 80 thous to be a history teacher... not my first choice (art teacher) but im good at it and i would like it so why not?
then theres the small task of not failing anything of these choices, ive only failed at the small stuff, nothing major, passed all my classes and wasnt the best or worse at anything, im just average, unless you count the many guys who seem to think im some sort of barbie or toy they can win like a carnival prize. I DO NOT THINK I LOOK THAT GOOD, im not bad... just average, thats all. i have a boyfriend and they seem to think its just a hurdle they have to get around to get to me, some guys have gaul.
1: he could not possibly love you like i can baby..... puking in mouth
2: he doesent have to know...... i have now acctually barfd
3: common hes not as good looking as me and you know it... OMG
4:(my fave) i dont have as much to offer but i can cook and clean
i said no of course but if you know a girl has a boyfriend and shes willing to cheat with you, who will she cheat on you with if your acctually lucky enough to date her, it leads no where..... jesus help these people.anyways so then i find out after i quit that my boss only hired me because he thought i was hot.... thank god i quit. im mentioning alot a religious crap here but im not overly bad, i can talk about anything.
oh and one more thing, just because a girls nice to you, doesent mean she likes you, its called being polite
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